An understanding

Hey ho~ its the imfamous ichigomilk ^^ as from my odd posting result and very few to read this account ill post my thoughts on various things and anything. If your already bored by the two sentences stop reading cause this is just me rambling about my thanks and tributes to various people.

I'd first like to remind anyone who does not know that i am 16 years old and in fact going into my sophomore year this time. A lot hasn't happen in my life up till now in fact most of the drama that ever happened was up till now. My parents nearly threatening divorce and my constant absence with my mmo friends. I realize that up till now i recently complain about my irl situation and use that as an excuse to make up for the crappy feeling i have inside me.

As since i was 12 years old i started playing my mmo life i've been accused of being obssesed and devoted to something that isnt materialistic at all. That may be true but its not something ill let alone. ive realized something in my past time. People can feel closer online to things that seem like something similar to them. I've come to that point as well. MMO's represent real life with smartass people, kind people, scammers, friends. It's all part of the play we do. Our feelings are something that cannot be erased...my MMO life is not meaningless its played the tribute to my life when i can come to understand people; learn to appreciate every effort. I started out with runescape *old history* after that i saw many ads for Pi Story a 2d casual mmo and i grew close to the game playing late at night and grinding hard. I came to realize people's minds as i began to realize my own. I know i know i sound pretty damn stupid like one of those sitcoms but...i can't help but feeling the people i love more are the people online.

I have my own moments yes i do~ its not like i can help them...i get touched by small gestures and small moments of laughter. I feel proud i feel like shit and yea i have my own opinions. As much as people know i have my own reasons for doing things mostly megaten already has an impression of me. Truth be told i could loose one person on this entire game and only feel sad. I won't say who but its not one of my friends neither a person you know. Second MMO i moved onto was Holic which disingrated earlier as did pi story; eventually megaten shall face the same fate and when that comes. i will happily laugh with my friends and cast my revenge on the world while i move onto a new mmo....yes i realize im not an ongoing dominating person like Pearz/Rho/Finelle/Xay/Royce *aka Megaten* who play a big role. I'm just a socialist who voices opinions in different ways. Sure im a "two faced bitch" sorry that i can change my opinions or am really stupid.

The fact is i just can't help myself from sometimes being an attention whore but i know when to draw the line for myself. I do what i want when i want. I'd like to thank the people who left who influenced me greatly. Asahino/Iya/Xay/Pearz/Yuki` aka Yuku/Jeen/Tristen/Compact/Kohana/Clooud/Renkinjutsu/Sekushi/Royce and all my friends *sorry if i didn't mention you* and everyone from Pi story or Holic for making a difference as to where i am and how ive changed...thank you all

also a few appologies id like to say sorry to Yuki`. I`m sorry for not believing you and treated you inconsequentially to my own actions the incident may i have caused to take part in i appologize to that entire thing however my intention was of my own and if you still wish for me to say more message me :P i have my own reasons for doing so as i said and saying them is no more then showing an opinion.

and so ends my soap opera...to those who actually read it i hope you think what i said was complete waste of time because i needed to write it somewhere so i and my memories will never forget the people ive made friends with and the ones ive broken with, so thank you all...as to Xay who i never got a chance to say goodbye to please have a nice time in Aion and for the rest who have left, never forget the ones you have come to know.